We Miss You Ramadan
Ali Hasan Farrag
If you ask one of the repentant who had an experience with sins about the best
days of his life, he will say: They are the first days of repentance.
Those days have great rank in the heart of every repentant where his heart was
attached with his Lord, approaching Him, and looking at the Hereafter with his
heart. Repentance has purified him from his past sins as if he was reborn
However, he has not been affected yet with the
diseases of good deeds, such as: haughtiness, pride, and hypocrisy because he
is newly converted to his Lord. He does not have anything to boast of with or
to show off with, but his entire interest is whether his repentance is
accepted and his sins are forgiven or not; his hope is short, his weeping is
abundant, his heart is Humble, his side is lenient, does not care for the
world, does not pay attention to it, but his only wish is that his Lord would
be pleased with Him, forgive his sins, and protect him against need.
When his heart became clean and his mind became clear, he was ready to talk to
his Lord, enjoy to listen to His Words, and understand His Speech, hence his
Salah becomes long in Khushu' (the heart being attuned to the act of worship)
Despite this reason and others, the repentant yearn to their first days
although their pious actions during those days were not enough. It was
reported from Al Junayd (may Allah show mercy to him) that he said: I yearn to
Moreover, when Ash'arites came from Yemen emigrants to the Prophet (peace be
upon him) and heard the Qur'an, they cried and touched by hearing it because
they had soft hearts. Then, As-Siddiq the one of soft heart said: thus we used
to do when hearts were full of life or as he said (may Allah be pleased with
By the passing of days, the repentant become weaker and their states
deteriorate because of long hope, earning of sins, showing off with acts,
hypocrisy, and enjoying with the worldly life.
In the middle of these problems and the other matters that remove
submissiveness, softness, connection with Allah, and seeking the Hereafter,
there come the seasons of good deeds to gather the heart of believers from the
choppy sea waves of daily life events which are full of distractions, trivial
matters, and disputes to place them before the hands of their Lord and Creator
to go back to his submissiveness and enjoying talking to Him and stand before
Him for Salah.
The spiritual program which a Muslim practices during Ramadan is enough to
lift a believer to higher degrees of faith and certainty, reverence and
submissiveness, and staying away from varmint demands and villainous wills;
Ramadan includes fasting during the day, standing for Salah at night, giving
in charity, invocation, seeking forgiveness, going for 'Umrah, spending times
in reciting the Qur'an, and staying in the Masjids most of the time, taking
into account the ethics of fasting, such as: abandoning idle and obscene talk,
avoiding anything near that, and achieving nobility of spirit after breaking
oneself with hunger and thirst. This is rewarded by the mercy which Allah
reveals to His Servants, forgiving them, and freeing some of them from fire
every night; this makes a Muslim, during Ramadan, a new Muslim unlike the one
who existed before Ramadan.
How beautiful is to think about the goal for which Allah created His Servants!
Who can estimate the psychological happiness and self-peace which covers the
heart when doing this act of worship properly and sincerely?
How beautiful is to subject to our Creator in this month, dedicate ourselves
to worship Him, and fulfill His Ordinances because we have burdened ourselves
with subjection to people around us!
How beautiful is to direct all our interests to please our Lord (Glory be to
Him) alone after we have troubled ourselves with gaining a word of praise
although those actions should be directed to Allah alone.
The share of oneself from worship is little in compare to other pious acts,
such as: teaching, delivering lectures, or writing books. However, the people
who dedicate these actions to Allah alone are few unlike the acts of worship
that are done during Ramadan where everybody is taking part in, therefore,
boasting and hypocrisy are reduced during that month.
If you want to know the share oneself and his role in what he is doing, see
how it is easy for many to write a book or deliver a lecture and how difficult
for them is to stand up at night for Salah.
Ramadan purifies ourselves from apparent and hidden desires and takes our
hands to safety by correcting the intention, remembering the Hereafter, and
repenting of our sins, corrupted intentions, and past desires.
Therefore, we have to benefit of this great chance in reforming our hearts and
intentions, give our souls its right of enjoying talking to their Creator,
connecting with Him, and mention and praising Him all the time because by
doing this, they win the happiness of the world and the Hereafter.