He Declared That He Was An Apostate In Order To Avoid Having To Offer Expiation, Then He Repented And Regretted It
The Awqaf -
I have an issue I want to ask about, which has
been troubling me for some years. When I was fifteen
years old, I masturbated during the day in Ramadaan.
After that I tried to mend my ways and I researched
the ruling on the sin that I had committed, and I
thought that I had to offer the expiation for having
intercourse. Because I could not do that, I said to
myself, I will become a kaafir, Allaah forbid, then I
will become Muslim again, thus Allaah will forgive me
and I will not have to offer the expiation. So like a
fool I said, "Now I am a kaafir and tomorrow I will
become Muslim." Now I am thirty years old and I still
think of that incident. Every time I remember it I ask
Allaah to forgive me and I bear witness that there is
no god but Him and that Muhammad is His slave and
Messenger. All the time I pray and fast, until now,
praise be to Allaah. But should the hadd punishment,
which is execution, be carried out on me so that
Allaah will accept my repentance?.
Praise be to Allaah.
The Shaytaan keeps on making falsehood appear
attractive and gradually makes a person fall into the
worst of evil deeds and the gravest of major sins,
namely shirk (associating others with Allaah),
thinking that he is doing himself a favour. How can a
person try to avoid fasting for two consecutive months
by disbelieving in Allaah the Almighty, when Allaah
has forbidden Paradise to the one who meets Him as a
kaafir? The one who does that is like one who jumps
out of the frying pan into the fire. He flees from one
thing and falls into something that is far worse.
The trick did not benefit him by relieving him of what
was obligatory upon him, because it is a haraam trick,
indeed it is the worst of all haraam things. The basic
principle according to the scholars is that a trick
does not waive an obligation or make something haraam
permissible. Can a person be sure that if he commits
this major sin, Allaah will give him time to repent
and come back? Is it not possible that the last
moments of his life may be when he has announced his
kufr, Allaah forbid? Then he will be one of those
whose deeds are lost in this world and in the
Hereafter, and such are the dwellers of the Fire in
which they will abide forever.
Does he not fear that Allaah will punish him for this
evil action by preventing him from repenting and
coming back to Islam?
"So when they turned away (from the path of Allaah),
Allaah turned their hearts away (from the Right Path).
And Allaah guides not the people who are Faasiqoon
(rebellious, disobedient to Allaah)"
To sum up: The one who has done this has done
something serious that makes the flesh of the
believers crawl. Praise be to Allaah Who has enabled
you to repent. We hope that Allaah will accept your
repentance and forgive you your sin.
Part of perfecting your repentance is to do a great
deal of righteous deeds, remembering Allaah (dhikr),
reading Qur'aan, asking for forgiveness, acquiring
knowledge and teaching it, giving charity, calling
people to Allaah, etc. There are many kinds of good
deeds, so strive hard and may Allaah forgive you.
Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning):
"And verily, I am indeed forgiving to him who repents,
believes (in My Oneness, and associates none in
worship with Me) and does righteous good deeds, and
then remains constant in doing them (till his death)"
The punishment for the one who apostatizes from Islam
is death, because the Prophet (peace and blessings of
Allaah be upon him) said: "Whoever changes his
religion, execute him." Narrated by al-Bukhaari
The majority of scholars (including the Hanafis,
Shaafa'is and Maalikis) are of the view that this
punishment is waived in the case of one who repents
and comes back to Islam, which is what applies in your
See al-Mughni (9/18) and Sharh Muslim by al-Nawawi
With regard to the ruling on masturbating during the
day in Ramadaan, it invalidates the fast and what you
have to do is make up that day only, not offer the
expiation for having intercourse. In the answer to
question no. 50632 we have explained that the
expiation for breaking the fast is only required in
the case of intercourse.