After a spiritual journey of almost
40 years, a Boston Jewish linguist finds Islam in
Africa.
By Dr. Moustafa Mould
Dr.
Moustafa Mould, Ex-Jew, USA (part 1 of 5)
An odyssey is a
long, wandering journey. The word comes from Odysseus
(in Latin, Ulysses) a hero of the Homeric epic poem,
The Odyssey. His journey home took ten years and was
fraught with many mishaps, detours, dangers and
adventures. In retrospect, my road to Islam my
journey home- seems like an odyssey. As I look back
over my life, from my early childhood up until I
finally made shahadah[1], a journey of almost
40 years, it seems that there were many signs, many
turning points, many incidents, some significant, some
trivial, that were all preparing me for and pointing
the way to Islam.
I grew up in
Boston. It was very much a Catholic city, mostly
Irish and Italian, with small but significant
communities of blacks, Jews, Chinese, Greeks,
Armenians and Christians Arabs, and in those days
especially, each group had its own neighborhood.
There were lots of Greek and Syrian restaurants, and I
grew up loving Greek salad, shish kebob,
lahm mishwi, kibbi, grape leaves, humus,
anything with lamb, etc.
My family were
mostly working-class, conservative Jews. My
grandparents had fled the anti-Semitism and pogroms of
czarist Russia around 1903. They and their families
had found work in the sweatshops of the garment
district, a few were in craft skills, and they were
quite active in their labor unions. I was to become
the first in my family to get a university degree.
Our home was not strictly kosher, but we would never
dream of eating pork. All the holidays and fasts were
observed, and for years I went to the synagogue every
Saturday and holiday with my father and uncle.
The synagogue we
belonged to was conservative, close to orthodox but
modernist: it was very traditional, but women were not
totally segregated. I began "Madrasah" (Hebrew
school) at age six. It was 1948, which saw the birth
of the state of Israel, and Zionist propaganda filled
the atmosphere, as did conversations and sermons about
the Nazis and concentration camps, and there were many
recent immigrant refugee survivors.
At that time
there was still a lot of anti-Semitism in the U.S.,
especially in the South and the Midwest, but also in
Boston. The Greeks, Syrians and Italians were fine,
but the Boston Irish were a big problem, dating back
to my parents' generation in WWI and the 1920s.
During my childhood I was often chased, spat on,
insulted and beaten. They even held me down and
pulled my pants down - in addition to the humiliation
they wanted to see what a circumcision looked like.
My Hebrew
teachers were two Israeli brothers, who were orthodox,
and veterans of the 1948 war. From them I learned
modern Hebrew and absorbed a lot of Zionist ideology
along with the religious teachings. I became more
religious and an avid Zionist. I believed that Jews
needed their own country in case of another Hitler -
those Irish kids were doing nothing to allay my fears
and I did not feel "at home" in America. I decided I
would go and spend my life on a kibbutz (communal
farm).
My father was a
musician and a cantor (prayer leader). He had a
beautiful tenor voice, preferred the more traditional,
rather oriental, melodies, and chanted the prayers
with lots of huzn (sorrow) (when I learned that
word recently I began to wonder if it might be related
to Hebrew hazan = cantor'). In our synagogue,
the Torah reader used a very oriental sounding tajwid
which I loved listening to. Believe it or not, I
recently heard a friend reciting from the Quran and it
sounded almost identical.
One thing that
stands out clearly in my memory, even now during salah,
is that in the Jewish prayers there are regular
references to prostration (sujud). In fact, it
is a custom in the more orthodox synagogues that
during Yom Kippur , the holiest fast day and the
equivalent of Ashurah' , the cantor, on behalf
of the congregation, actually makes sujud,
while still chanting. This is no mean feat, and my
father, with his powerful voice, did it extremely
well. I remember thinking then that it would be
really nice if we all actually did prostrate, instead
of just bowing as a symbolic sujud.
Around the age
of eight or nine, I chanced to discover a radio
station that broadcast programs of the local ethnic
communities. I began to listen to the Yiddish, Greek
and Armenian ones, and especially to the Arabic Hour.
I fell in love with the music and the sound of the
language. Using the Hebrew I knew, I tried to
understand the news and figure out the sound
correspondences; I noticed the differences between
hamzah and ayn, kh and h,
k and q, distinctions which modern Hebrew
has lost. This greatly improved my Hebrew spelling
and I won prizes in Hebrew class. I also remember
helping my friends cheat during spelling tests by
repeating the words under my breath in an "Arabic"
accent.
By High School,
I had discovered the Boston Public Library and its
record section: besides classical, I discovered ethnic
folk music from all over the world, but I especially
gravitated to the Middle Eastern: Arabic, Turkish,
Persian, then Indian-Pakistani. I learned to identify
various regional styles, instruments and rhythms. I
most loved the oud, and I taught myself to
play the dumbeg and accompany the recordings. Once, a
group of Yemeni Jews came to Boston from Israel to
perform folk songs and dances. I was fascinated by
their appearance, costumes and music. They even
pronounced Hebrew like me during a spelling test.
I mention all
these little things because there is an undeniable
cultural component to Islam: the language, the
melodies of adhan and Quran, social
interactions and other features, which are really
quite exotic and strange to the average Westerner,
including westernized Jews, but which, by the time I
encountered them years later in a different context,
were already very familiar and pleasant to me, even to
the point of nostalgia, and which helped make Islam
easier for me to accept and follow. More on that
later.
My best friend
in high school was also a strong influence on me. He
read a lot of philosophy, poetry and religious
literature. I didn't care much for the first two, but
I did read some of the religious writings, Hindu,
Buddhist, Taoist and the Quran. I noticed that its
stories were quite similar to the Bible stories, but I
felt it was anti-Jewish. I was quite impressed,
though, by its depiction of Jesus as a prophet, not
just a rabbi. I accepted that, and that became my
answer to my Catholic classmates when they would ask
me what I believed about Jesus. They seemed not too
displeased by that.
Dr. Moustafa
Mould, Ex-Jew, USA (part 2 of 5)
I also attended
an advanced "Madrasah", studying Jewish
history, Hebrew, Torah, and added Aramaic and Talmud
(Jewish fiqh); the languages, though were still my
chief interest. Also around that time, age fifteen, I
lost my faith, my belief in God. Earlier, I'd
concluded that if God commands us to do certain
things, how can I not do them; so I tried to be more
orthodox. Then, one day I found myself saying, if God
says to do all this I must; but what if there is no
God? Do I believe in God? I really don't know, maybe
not, I guess not. And if God doesn't exist, I don't
need to be doing all this stuff. And I stopped. You
can well imagine how upset my father was.
Many people,
particularly Roman Catholics and fundamentalist
Protestants who grow up in a harsh religious
environment, full of the threat of Hellfire and
damnation, beaten by the nuns at school and made to
feel guilty about things that are merely a part of
fitrah (nature) like their bodies - are happy to
get out of the religion, become very anti-religion,
and feel freed as if from a prison. My feeling was
not like that; I felt sad, more like I'd suffered a
loss, but there was nothing I could do; I knew it
would be comforting to believe, but I couldn't.
Throughout the 60's and 70's I occasionally got these
gnawing feelings and yearnings.
As Jeffrey Lang
said in his book about his conversion to Islam, there
is an emptiness and a loneliness that an atheist
feels, which people of faith cannot understand. The
world is absurd, an accident. Science has, or will
have, all the answers, but life has no real meaning or
significance. Death is final. You can have influence
and an impact on the world through your children; you
can do well, be remembered in the history books for
hundreds, even thousands of years; when the sun dies
mankind may colonize other star systems, maybe even
other galaxies. But ultimately, even if it takes 15
Billion years, the universe itself will die, or
collapse into a black hole or whatever, and the end is
absolute nothingness, the only thing that is infinite
is a void. Life, then, is meaningless and death
frightening. Truth and morality can become relative,
which may lead to moral confusion, hedonism, and
worse. But instead of the contempt for religious
people that many atheists claim to feel, I respected
them, and often envied them the security, the
certainty, the comfort they experienced.
I went overnight
from almost orthodox to an atheist, though I still
loved Jewish languages, culture, music, food,
history. I was an "ethnic " Jew, and still a
Zionist. Zionism was still largely a political
philosophy, not so much a religious one. In fact, at
that time there was still significant opposition to
Zionism among many of the orthodox. The current
religious, messianic type Zionism really didn't
develop until 1967 1973 when Israel seized
Jerusalem. I also decided I wanted to be a historical
linguist specializing in Semitic languages; but then
the universities I chose didn't accept me, and the one
that did didn't offer Arabic, or even linguistics.
At my university
in the early 60's, I came into contact with a wider
variety of people. For the first time I knew a large
numbers of Protestants, more blacks, and most of the
few foreign students, a couple of were Muslim. I was
no longer encountering anti-Semitism, and I was
beginning to enjoy and appreciate the diversity of
Americans and my exposure to the international
students. By the end of my sophomore year I was
eating bacon and pork chops; at the same time I helped
organize and was the president of the campus chapter
of the Student Zionist Organization. I was New
England vice president in my senior year.
Many of us were
politically left-wing, coming from working class
families whose spectrum ranged from liberal democrat
to communist. We were pro-labor and the American
Civil Liberties Union, anti-McCarty, Nixon, the House
Un-American Activities Committee. We revered Franklin
D. Roosevelt, Hubert Humphrey and Adlai Stevenson.
We were into labor Zionism and the kibbutzim. One
thing I want to emphasize, because of the profound
effect it had on me years later: at that time most
Jews were still socialists or liberal democrats, many
were still working class, not quite so successful as
now. I clearly remember right-wing Herut party, their
expansionist ideology and terrorist activities in the
40's. We considered them fanatics and lunatics.
I took a seminar
on the Middle East. At nineteen I thought I knew
everything. My professor was Syrian, and I think a
Muslim. I was going to teach him a few things. He
was remarkably patient and tolerant with me,
considering his obvious anti-Zionist, anti-Israel
position. His criticisms of my papers were objective
and mild, mainly that they were too one sided. I
began to pay more attention to the other side, and I
realized how much propaganda I'd absorbed and how much
information had been ignored, if not hidden from us.
I didn't get a very good grade, but I learned a great
deal. Professor Haddad made much of the rest of my
life, secular and religious, possible.
At the same
time, I was becoming more and more involved in the
civil rights and anti-Vietnam war movements. I joined
the Student Non-violent Coordinating Committee (SNCC)
and the NAACP, and participated in sit-ins at lunch
counters. I helped found our campus chapter of the
then mildly radical Students for a Democratic Society
(SDS). I majored in government, taking several
courses in constitutional law and international
relations. I went to Washington, D.C. in August,
1963, in the March on Washington and was standing
about 60 feet from Dr. King when he made that
wonderful speech.
I'd lost my
faith at 15; by 22 I'd lost Zionism. I still had my
ethnic heritage, though I'd begun to feel
uncomfortable with the clannishness of many Jews. I
felt like a normal American fighting for American
causes. I prepared to be a social studies teacher,
but the job market was not good. After two years of
substituting, and a temporary position at my old high
school, I joined the Peace Corps, for the adventure
and idealism improved my job prospects later and to
avoid being drafted and sent to Vietnam. I was
selected to go to Uganda, East Africa.
I was extremely
happy in that beautiful country, living where the Nile
flows out of Lake Victoria, teaching students who
wanted to learn in a society where teachers were
respected. I was learning new languages and
cultures. I developed a taste for African and
Indian-Pakistani cuisine. Since there wasn't much
else to do in a small, up-country town, I began going
to Indian movies. I particularly liked Mohammed Rafi,
the famous playback singers, especially his qawalis;
he reminded me of my father's cantorial music. I also
enjoyed the Islamic, Omani Arab ambience I found on
the coast: Mombassa, Dar es-Salam, Zanzibar. It was
the first time not in a Hollywood (or Bombay) movie
that I heard the adhan. Even in the movies its
plaintive melodies always sent a thrill through my
body. I was learning two African languages, Swahili
and Luganda. Swahili was a very easy one for me; over
half its vocabulary is from Arabic and practically the
same as Hebrew. But Swahili is a Bantu language, and
I was fascinated by the similarities and differences
between Swahili and Luganda. I made up my mind: here
was my (last?) chance to do what I'd always wanted
linguistics but now with Bantu instead of Semitic
languages. I applied to graduate school.
Dr. Moustafa
Mould, Ex-Jew, USA (part 3 of 5)
I returned home
through the Middle East and Europe first stop
Israel. It was 1969. I was no longer a Zionist, but
even so, I was surprised at how disappointed I was. I
know that part of it was the culture shock of leaving
a small, up-country African town, people and a job
that I loved; still, I was surprised by the
brusqueness and arrogance of the Israelis I met much
like the American stereotype of the French. From an
archaeological and historical perspective it was a
good experience, but I couldn't get over how alienated
I felt from the culture and from what were supposed to
be my people.
I refused on
principle to visit the West Bank that was before
they started building settlements except for East
Jerusalem; I couldn't resist that. Standing at the
wall of Solomon's temple, the Dome of the Rock and
Al-Aqsa gave me an intense feeling I could not
describe at the time. I can describe it now: I was
sensing a feeling of holiness; it's no wonder the
Islamic name is Al-Quds. But it upset me a great deal
to see first-hand the discrimination and second-class
status of the Palestinians, even the citizens. I had
grown up in an American subculture where Jews had
always been in the forefront of civil rights, labor
and civil liberties struggles. To me, what I found in
Israel wasn't Jewish.
The next ten
years, 69 - 79, I spent in Los Angeles. I had missed
1968, one of the most important and turbulent years in
modern American history. Though not surprised, I was
very disheartened upon my return to the U.S. Blacks
were separating from Whites by choice; SDS had become
a bunch of raving Maoists, free speech was
degenerating into filthy speech. I couldn't be
political again, except for an occasional anti-war or
anti-Nixon demonstration. I was both attracted to and
repelled by the hedonism of 70s California. I was
tempted to indulge and half-heartedly did so, but -
thank God for my fitrah and my good Jewish
upbringing I didn't go very far; I mostly grew my
hair and beard long. I was too absorbed in my
studies, getting my doctorate, teaching, getting
married then divorced, and looking for a decent
academic position.
Two things
during that decade are relevant tom this story.
Briefly, the Likud government in Israel, the building
of settlements and the brutal treatment of the
Palestinians, not to mention its alliance with South
Africa, revolted and infuriated me, and turned me from
a non-Zionist to a vocal anti-Zionist. Even worse to
me was the knee-jerk support of the American Jewish
community, which I'd though would oppose Likud at
least quietly. Didn't we all agree just a few years
before that Begin and his ilk were lunatics?!
Many of the
settlers interviewed on the TV news were obviously
American Jews. How could they have grown up in this
country with these American - and Jewish - values,
live through the civil rights revolution, and go do
what they were doing there? There was more Jewish
opposition in Israel than there was in the U.S. I
felt betrayed, ashamed, disgusted. There were, of
course - and are - other Jews who felt as I did,
mainly those on the left, but only a few spoke out.
Notable were I.F. Stone, a radical journalist and one
of my heroes, and Noam Chomski, whose political
writings on the Vietnam war and Palestine were as
revolutionary as his theory of linguistics.
In 1979,
recently divorced, unable to land a tenure-track
position, and missing Africa, I returned as an
assistant professor of linguistics at the University
of Nairobi. My father has passed away just a couple
of months before I was to leave. I became friends
with several faculty members, particularly my
department chairman and a history professor, both
Muslims from Mombassa, and the Arabic professor, my
Sudanese next-door neighbor. I often ate lunch in the
faculty dining room with them, and out of respect for
them (and embarrassment, because I knew they knew I
was a Jew) I never ate pork when I was with them.
Before long I stopped eating pork completely. We
often discussed the Middle East, Islam and Judaism,
and I was pleasantly surprised to see that they could
be anti-Israel without being anti-Jewish; they were
surprised that I could be a Jew and anti-Israel.
Having more time
on my hand than I'd enjoyed in a long time, I decided
to catch up on my ever-growing reading list. I
re-read the Bible: the Old Testament to clarify some
confusion about chronology in ancient history, the New
Testament because I never had and I though I ought to.
I re-read the
Quran. I knew nothing then of the early Islamic
history. Sirah or Hadith, but I
appreciated it more this time. I got that reaction
again, though; why does it have to be so critical of
the Jews; but, my memory recently refreshed, I
recalled that the Torah itself and the rest of the Old
Testament were equally critical, if not more so, than
the Quran. But didn't the Jews finally learn their
lesson and truly become the People of the Book when
they were expelled from Israel and Jerusalem the
second time, and when the rabbis, synagogues and
prayers replaced the priests, temple and sacrifices?
What was it, then, about the Jews of Madinah; they
were clearly reprehensible but they sounded so
different from us European Jews, even from the
Sephardi Jews of the time of the Caliphs; had they,
like the Ethiopian and Chinese Jews, lacked the
Talmud? I'm still curious about that. Anyway, that
insight was later to prove to be a barrier removed.
Someone wise
once said that if your faith is weak, just pretend to
have faith, and that will strengthen it. Africans,
whether Christian, Muslim or Pagan, are spiritual
people. To be an atheist is incomprehensible and
ridiculous to them. Knowing this, I never said I was
an atheist when questioned - as I constantly was-
About my
religion. I would reply that of course I believed in
God, one God, but not in any particular religion. I
was almost true, or at least what I wanted to believe
if I could. I cannot say that I had a sudden flash of
inspiration, like Paul on the road to Damascus, or a
near-death experience ( I did have two, but without
religious effect). It seems to me that, just by
saying it and pretending it, it gradually came back to
me.
I'd become a
deist, like another hero of mine, Thomas Jefferson.
Maybe I would join the Unitarian Church, a popular
group, especially in New England, which accepts Jesus
as a prophet, and which includes many socially
conscious, formerly Jewish and Trinitarian Christian,
liberal intellectuals.
Another
contributing factor was my joining at that time the
Nairobi symphony orchestra/chorus. It was an amateur
group but they were excellent. I'd gone with some
friends to their Easter concert to hear them perform
the Mozart Requiem music for a funeral mass. That
music, intensely religious, was gorgeous, sublime
awe-inspiring and inspirational. It wasn't only the
beauty of the music, though it was a major part, but
the message glorifying God, speaking of death,
resurrection, the final Judgment and eternal life
moved me to tears. The next day I went and signed up
to sing in the chorus.
For the next
three years I sang other masterpieces: masses,
requiems, oratorios Beethoven, Brahms, Bach, Verdi.
It is all Christian, and some of it of course makes
reference to Jesus as divine, but those words had no
effect on m e; I was just helping make beautiful
music. But the parts that spoke of God did touch me
deeply and helped me gradually regain my faith and
belief in Him. Of course today I would not sing such
things as "I know that my redeemer liveth," but
consider the beauty and power of "The Lord God
Omnipotent reigneth, and he shall reign forever and
ever. Hallelujah (Alhamdulillah)."
Dr. Moustafa
Mould, Ex-Jew, USA (part 4 of 5)
Then I fell in
love. She was Somali, intelligent, witty, charming,
and a young widow with two handsome young sons. Her
English was very limited then, and my Somali was
non-existent, but we could communicate quite easily in
Swahili. We discussed marriage, but there were a few
practical problems.
I knew I could
not stay much longer at the University of Nairobi;
they were trying to africanize it as quickly a
possible, and to them I was just another white
foreigner. Before I got much older I needed a new
job, probably a new career, maybe with the State
Department or a non-profit agency. From her point of
view the obstacle was simply I was a not a Muslim. I
had mistakenly though that any Muslim could marry one
of the People of the Book; she set me straight on that
very quickly; men yes, women, no.
She was telling
me about Islam, and I'd learned some things from my
colleagues and others. I already believed in the One
God,. The Creator of the universe and all that is in
it; I already believed in the Islamic concepts of
tawhid and shirk and avoiding belief or trust in
anything like astrology or palmistry; I'd long
believed that Jesus was one of the prophets. I
believed that I believed that Muhammad, may the mercy
and blessing of God be upon him, was a prophet ands a
messenger, and it had long ceased to be relevant to me
that Muhammad was not a Jewish prophet.
I'd stopped
eating pork; I didn't gamble, I rarely drank anything
besides a glass of wine with an occasional gourmet
dinner. I was, since my Peace Corps days, already
more comfortable with African and Islamic notions of
modesty, child rearing, etc. than with the "sexual
revolution", and the me-ism and disintegrating
families of the 70s and 80s America. There didn't
seem to be much to prevent me from becoming a Muslim.
I was so close, so what, in 1983, was the problem?
In fact there
were two. First, there was the matter of my identity
and my heritage. I imagine that it is not so
traumatic for a Christian to change from one religion
to another. If a German Catholic becomes a Lutheran,
or even a Jew or Muslim, he remains a German. I
certainly felt like an American first and a Jew second
I could never consider myself Russian. But in
America, nation of immigrants, even the most
acculturated attach some importance to their families'
national or ethnic origins. Even though I had no
desire to deal with Jews as Jews or as a community, I
was reluctant to lose that identity.
The second
obstacle was my family. Though not orthodox, most
were strongly traditional, all pro-Israel, some were
avid Zionists; many considered Arabs as enemies, and I
expected they would also consider Muslims as enemies.
I feared they would disown me as crazy, even
traitorous. Worst of all, because I still loved them,
they would be hurt. First things first: I left that
problem up in the air, and when my contract expired I
did not renew it, but returned to the States hoping to
find another job, preferably back in East Africa.
It was terribly
hard. I had no home, no income, not even an interview
suit. I invested in a wool suit, three ties and a
winter coat it was my first winter in twenty years
got books on how to write a resume and a SF171, and
stayed with a friend in Washington, trying all the
government agencies, consulting firms and PVOs that
had anything to do with Africa, until my many ran
out. I had to return to Boston and stay with my
sister, where I had food and shelter, but it was far
from where the jobs might be. In addition, I was
going through a severe case of culture shock. So
there I was: broke in Reaganomic America, in the
winter, in culture shock on top of a mid-life crisis,
in love and on anti-depressants.
I can joke now,
but the pain and fear were unbearable then. For the
first time in my adult life I began to pray. I prayed
often and hard. I vowed that, if I could get back to
Africa and marry my beloved, I would declare my
submission to Allah and become a Muslim.
I got a really
awful temporary job in a warehouse that at least paid
for food, bus fares and dry cleaning, then a better,
but embarrassing one as a receptionist in the
counseling office at a local college. I could see
that the four yuppie psychologists figured me for some
42-year-old loser, and I pretty much agreed with
them. Out of embarrassment I didn't tell anything
about myself, but when the phone wasn't ringing off
the hook with students panicking over mid-terms, I was
reading job notices and typing applications letters.
I found that a government agency was hiring ESL
teachers for Egypt - close enough - and I applied
immediately. A week later another agency I'd applied
to six months earlier invited me to D.C. for
interviews.
As soon as I got
to Washington I called about the ESL jobs to see if I
could get an interview, "as long as I'm in Town." The
jobs were already filled! Can I meet you anyway, in
case something comes up later? OK, four o'clock?
Great. She apologized my resume had been misplaced
and would definitely keep me in mind. Thank you ,
delighted to meet you. As I was leaving, she said
hesitantly, "By the way, there is one position opening
soon, but it's in Somalia."
"Somalia!" I
nearly shouted, "That's wonderful!"
"Is it ?" she
asked incredulously.
"Sure, I'd love
to go there. I'm already familiar with the culture
and the religion," I said aloud, but thinking to
myself how it's only an hour from Mogadishu to
Nairobi, and how maybe I'd get to meet my future
family in-laws. I told her my references, all of whom
she knew personally. She would call them, and as far
as she was concerned if I wanted the job I could
probably have it.
I finished up my
interviews at the other agency. They even showed me
the cubicle in windowless office where I would
probably be working, and I returned to Boston,
elated. I might even have a choice, praise God. But
what a choice it was: a one year renewable contract at
a hot, dusty but African hardship post on the
Indian Ocean, or a career civil service job with a
pension plan in a windowless office in northern
Virginia.
Two weeks later,
she called to offer me the job of English program
director in Mogadishu, would I take it, I had 48 hours
to think it over. Everyone said it was a no-brainer;
I should take the career job with pension in
Washington, otherwise I'd be back t square one in a
year or two. I argued that I was an Africanist, the
experience would help me and I'd make good contacts.
I accepted the job and starting getting my shots. A
couple of weeks later the other agency sent me a brief
note, no explanation, informing me I did not get the
windowless job.
Alhamdulillah,
Allahu alim. I could so easily have ended up with
neither, but Allah had guided me to the right
decision. I was employed. I was a person. I might
even getting married. I gave my notice at the
college, and on the last day I typed a letter to the
psychologists informing them that I was leaving to
take up a position as a project direct at the United
States Embassy in Somalia, signed M. Mould, Ph.D.
Of course I "had
to" stop off in Nairobi for a few days on my way to
Mogadishu. We had a tearful reunion and tried to make
some future plans. I'd been hired as a single man, no
chance of benefits or housing for a family, and I had
no idea what Somalia or my job would be like or how
long I would be there. For the time being, I'd remain
a single man in Nairobi. Maybe I could visit often,
and there was always the phone. Maybe she could come
and visit her family, whom she hadn't seen since
childhood.
The job was
interesting, a little teaching, but mostly
administration and management, and dealing with
embassy officials. Most of my own students were
senior government officials and a few of them became
good friends. Outside of work was a whole different
story. The culture and atmosphere in urban Somalia is
more Middle Eastern than African. During my seven
years in Uganda and Kenya I knew the languages, people
were open and friendly, and I never had trouble
adjusting or getting around; I'd always felt
completely at home. Mogadishu gave me culture shock.
I didn't know the language, no one knew Swahili,
educated Somalis knew Italian, not English. All the
signs were in Somali. The worst thing was
communications. Home phones were overcrowded,
sweltering post office. Only telegraph service was
usually efficient. The mail was totally unreliable
except for the diplomatic pouch. It was impossible to
contact Nairobi.
Don't get me
wrong. I was quite happy there, enjoying the sights
and smells, the Italian and Somali food, my views of
the ocean, which was within walking distance of my
house and my office, discovering a new culture. I was
living downtown, in one of the older sections, behind
the Italian embassy, and I was awakened early morning
by a beautiful adhan from the loudspeaker of a nearby
mosque. We worked a Muslim schedule: Sunday
Thursday, 7 3. On Fridays I would walk around and
often found myself outside a little mosque behind the
American Embassy, and while myrrh and frankincense
drifted from the doorways in the alleys I would stop
and listen to the sounds of Jumu'ah.
Footnotes:
[1] Shahadah, the Islamic testimonial of faith,
i.e. "I testify that there is no god but God, and I
testify that Muhammad is the messenger of God."