A Christian girl who was very
skeptical about religions felt connected to Islam
right away.
By Emily
Growing up in
New Zealand, I was raised as a Christian however my
parents were not overly religious. As a young girl I
went to Sunday school every week and attended church
with my grandmother and went to Christian classes as
part of the school curriculum. As I got older I
stopped going to church as I never really felt
passionate about Christianity. In my teenage years I
made a few mistakes as I got involved with a group of
friends that were a bad influence and my family
decided to move to Australia at the beginning of 2006
when I was 15.
I attended high
school in Australia and really began to excel at
school and began a new life. I achieved the grades I
needed to get into my University Course so I moved out
of home (closer to the university) and into student
accommodation. Up until this point I had no idea about
Islam except from what I had heard in the media, I had
never met a Muslim person before.
One of my
housemates was a Muslim and he was very open minded
and was the most genuine, kind hearted person I have
ever met. I did not ask him much about his religion
until I got to know him a bit more and when I did I
was very intrigued. I was asking him questions
everyday about everything from the Quran to Arabic
words! I was always interested and excited by the
answers.
I was usually
very skeptical about religions but with Islam I felt
connected right away. A year went by and I met a lot
of Muslims and they were all very kind and peaceful
people and they were always willing to answer my
questions. I started doing my own research just before
I turned 19 and I knew I wanted to convert to Islam
before Ramadan 2009. The previous Ramadan I had fasted
some days but I later learned that none of those
counted unless I was Muslim.
After my 19th
birthday I was eager to learn even more about Islam as
I received the book called "Don't Be Sad" which had a
lot of referencing to the Quran and I realized a lot
of it was my theory on life anyway. I then moved into
a house by myself and I was very lonely and depressed
all the time. Because I was always alone, whenever I
said Bismillah (I begin with the name of God) I
felt very relieved and safe. I knew I needed to
convert to Islam but I didn't want my Muslim friends
to think I was doing it just because of them so I was
very hesitant.
I was also
hesitant because I did not realize how easy Islam
would be for a 19 year old girl. I was just very
concerned that people, even my friends, did not know
much about Islam. Then one night I had a dream that I
was in Saudi Arabia and I was Muslim and I was wearing
a Hijab and it fell off in front of everyone, but
nobody said anything to me. When I woke up I felt this
was a sign that Islam was going to be easy for me.
Many things happened to me over the course of the few
weeks, all of which I knew were signs from Allah.
I was discussing
my concerns with Zia and Samy from islamreligion.com
and they said why wait? You don't know what will
happen tomorrow. It just made so much sense. I wanted
to convert to Islam right away.
I was very
nervous to tell my friend who had answered all my
questions over the past year as I didn't know what he
would think. He was very happy for me and he said he
would help me and the next day he brought me a compass
as a gift so I could find the right direction to pray.
I learnt the Shahada and that evening he helped
me convert to Islam. I was so happy that evening, I
cried out of joy. It was one of the happiest moments
of my life and I was so glad my friend could be there
with me to help me.
I have still not
told some of my friends. I am waiting, in the
meantime I am still learning. All in all, I am loving
my new life as a Muslim. I hope everyday I can just
learn more about Islam and I am very excited for my
first Ramadan.