Jerald F. Dirks, Minister of United Methodist Church, USA (part 1 to 4)
EsinIslam
Heralding New Muslims:
A Personal Account
Of Revert Muslim:
The early life and education of a
Harvard Hollis scholar and author of the book "The
Cross and the Crescent", disillusioned by Christianity
due the information learnt in its School of Theology.
By Jerald F. Dirks
Jerald F.
Dirks, Minister of United Methodist Church, USA (part
1 of 4)
One of my
earliest childhood memories is of hearing the church
bell toll for Sunday morning worship in the small,
rural town in which I was raised. The Methodist
Church was an old, wooden structure with a bell tower,
two children's Sunday School classrooms cubby-holed
behind folding, wooden doors to separate it from the
sanctuary, and a choir loft that housed the Sunday
school classrooms for the older children. It stood
less than two blocks from my home. As the bell rang,
we would come together as a family, and make our
weekly pilgrimage to the church.
In that rural
setting from the 1950s, the three churches in the town
of about 500 were the center of community life. The
local Methodist Church, to which my family belonged,
sponsored ice cream socials with hand-cranked,
homemade ice cream, chicken potpie dinners, and corn
roasts. My family and I were always involved in all
three, but each came only once a year. In addition,
there was a two-week community Bible school every
June, and I was a regular attendee through my eighth
grade year in school. However, Sunday morning worship
and Sunday school were weekly events, and I strove to
keep extending my collection of perfect attendance
pins and of awards for memorizing Bible verses.
By my junior
high school days, the local Methodist Church had
closed, and we were attending the Methodist Church in
the neighboring town, which was only slightly larger
than the town in which I lived. There, my thoughts
first began to focus on the ministry as a personal
calling. I became active in the Methodist Youth
Fellowship, and eventually served as both a district
and a conference officer. I also became the regular
"preacher" during the annual Youth Sunday service. My
preaching began to draw community-wide attention, and
before long I was occasionally filling pulpits at
other churches, at a nursing home, and at various
church-affiliated youth and ladies groups, where I
typically set attendance records.
By age 17, when
I began my freshman year at Harvard College, my
decision to enter the ministry had solidified. During
my freshman year, I enrolled in a two-semester course
in comparative religion, which was taught by Wilfred
Cantwell Smith, whose specific area of expertise was
Islam. During that course, I gave far less attention
to Islam than I did to other religions, such as
Hinduism and Buddhism, as the latter two seemed so
much more esoteric and strange to me. In contrast,
Islam appeared to be somewhat similar to my own
Christianity. As such, I didn't concentrate on it as
much as I probably should have, although I can
remember writing a term paper for the course on the
concept of revelation in the Quran. Nonetheless, as
the course was one of rigorous academic standards and
demands, I did acquire a small library of about a half
dozen books on Islam, all of which were written by
non-Muslims, and all of which were to serve me in good
stead 25 years later. I also acquired two different
English translations of the meaning of the Quran,
which I read at the time.
That spring,
Harvard named me a Hollis Scholar, signifying that I
was one of the top pre-theology students in the
college. The summer between my freshman and sophomore
years at Harvard, I worked as a youth minister at a
fairly large United Methodist Church. The following
summer, I obtained my License to Preach from the
United Methodist Church. Upon graduating from Harvard
College in 1971, I enrolled at the Harvard Divinity
School, and there obtained my Master of Divinity
degree in 1974, having been previously ordained into
the Deaconate of the United Methodist Church in 1972,
and having previously received a Stewart Scholarship
from the United Methodist Church as a supplement to my
Harvard Divinity School scholarships. During my
seminary education, I also completed a two-year
externship program as a hospital chaplain at Peter
Bent Brigham Hospital in Boston. Following graduation
from Harvard Divinity School, I spent the summer as
the minister of two United Methodist churches in rural
Kansas, where attendance soared to heights not seen in
those churches for several years.
Seen from the
outside, I was a very promising young minister, who
had received an excellent education, drew large crowds
to the Sunday morning worship service, and had been
successful at every stop along the ministerial path.
However, seen from the inside, I was fighting a
constant war to maintain my personal integrity in the
face of my ministerial responsibilities. This war was
far removed from the ones presumably fought by some
later televangelists in unsuccessfully trying to
maintain personal sexual morality. Likewise, it was a
far different war than those fought by the
headline-grabbing pedophilic priests of the current
moment. However, my struggle to maintain personal
integrity may be the most common one encountered by
the better-educated members of the ministry.
There is some
irony in the fact that the supposedly best, brightest,
and most idealistic of ministers-to-be are selected
for the very best of seminary education, e.g. that
offered at that time at the Harvard Divinity School.
The irony is that, given such an education, the
seminarian is exposed to as much of the actual
historical truth as is known about:
1) the
formation of the early, "mainstream" church, and how
it was shaped by geopolitical considerations;
2) the
"original" reading of various Biblical texts, many of
which are in sharp contrast to what most Christians
read when they pick up their Bible, although
gradually, some of this information is being
incorporated into newer and better translations;
3) the
evolution of such concepts as a triune godhead and the
"sonship" of Jesus, may the mercy and blessings of God
be upon him;
4) the
non-religious considerations that underlie many
Christian creeds and doctrines;
5) the
existence of those early churches and Christian
movements which never accepted the concept of a triune
godhead, and which never accepted the concept of the
divinity of Jesus, may the mercy and blessings of God
be upon him; and
6) etc.
(Some of these fruits of my seminary education are
recounted in more detail in my recent book, The Cross
and the Crescent: An Interfaith Dialogue between
Christianity and Islam, Amana Publications, 2001.)
As such, it is
no real wonder that almost a majority of such seminary
graduates leave seminary, not to "fill pulpits", where
they would be asked to preach that which they know is
not true, but to enter the various counseling
professions. Such was also the case for me, as I went
on to earn a master's and doctorate in clinical
psychology. I continued to call myself a Christian,
because that was a needed bit of self-identity, and
because I was, after all, an ordained minister, even
though my full time job was as a mental health
professional. However, my seminary education had
taken care of any belief I might have had regarding a
triune godhead or the divinity of Jesus, may the mercy
and blessings of God be upon him. (Polls regularly
reveal that ministers are less likely to believe these
and other dogmas of the church than are the laity they
serve, with ministers more likely to understand such
terms as "son of God" metaphorically, while their
parishioners understand it literally.) I thus became
a "Christmas and Easter Christian", attending church
very sporadically, and then gritting my teeth and
biting my tongue as I listened to sermons espousing
that which I knew was not the case.
None of the
above should be taken to imply that I was any less
religious or spiritually oriented than I had once
been. I prayed regularly, my belief in a supreme
deity remained solid and secure, and I conducted my
personal life in line with the ethics I had once been
taught in church and Sunday school. I simply knew
better than to buy into the man-made dogmas and
articles of faith of the organized church which were
so heavily laden with the pagan influences,
polytheistic notions, and geo-political considerations
of a bygone era.
Jerald F.
Dirks, Minister of United Methodist Church, USA (part
2 of 4)
As the years
passed by, I became increasingly concerned about the
loss of religiousness in American society at large.
Religiousness is a living, breathing spirituality and
morality within individuals and should not be confused
with religiosity, which is concerned with the rites,
rituals, and formalized creeds of some organized
entity, e.g. the church. American culture
increasingly appeared to have lost its moral and
religious compass. Two out of every three marriages
ended in divorce; violence was becoming an
increasingly inherent part of our schools and our
roads; self-responsibility was on the wane;
self-discipline was being submerged by a "if it feels
good, do it" morality; various Christian leaders and
institutions were being swamped by sexual and
financial scandals; and emotions justified behavior,
however odious it might be. American culture was
becoming a morally bankrupt institution, and I was
feeling quite alone in my personal religious vigil.
It was at this
juncture that I began to come into contact with the
local Muslim community. For some years before, my
wife and I had been actively involved in doing
research on the history of the Arabian horse.
Eventually, in order to secure translations of various
Arabic documents, this research brought us into
contact with Arab Americans who happened to be
Muslims. Our first such contact was with Jamal in the
summer of 1991.
After an initial
telephone conversation, Jamal visited our home, and
offered to do some translations for us and to help
guide us through the history of the Arabian horse in
the Middle East. Before Jamal left that afternoon, he
asked if he might use our bathroom to wash before
saying his scheduled prayers; and borrow a piece of
newspaper to use as a prayer rug, so he could say his
scheduled prayers before leaving our house. We, of
course, obliged, but wondered if there was something
more appropriate that we could give him to use than a
newspaper. Without our ever realizing it at the time,
Jamal was practicing a very beautiful form of Dawa
(preaching or exhortation). He made no comment about
the fact that we were not Muslims, and he didn't
preach anything to us about his religious beliefs. He
"merely" presented us with his example, an example
that spoke volumes, if one were willing to be
receptive to the lesson.
Over the next 16
months, contact with Jamal slowly increased in
frequency, until it was occurring on a biweekly to
weekly basis. During these visits, Jamal never
preached to me about Islam, never questioned me about
my own religious beliefs or convictions, and never
verbally suggested that I become a Muslim. However, I
was beginning to learn a lot. First, there was the
constant behavioral example of Jamal observing his
scheduled prayers. Second, there was the behavioral
example of how Jamal conducted his daily life in a
highly moral and ethical manner, both in his business
world and in his social world. Third, there was the
behavioral example of how Jamal interacted with his
two children. For my wife, Jamal's wife provided a
similar example. Fourth, always within the framework
of helping me to understand Arabian horse history in
the Middle East, Jamal began to share with me: 1)
stories from Arab and Islamic history; 2) sayings of
the Prophet Muhammad, may the mercy and blessings of
God be upon him; and 3) Quranic verses and their
contextual meaning. In point of fact, our every visit
now included at least a 30 minute conversation
centered on some aspect of Islam, but always presented
in terms of helping me intellectually understand the
Islamic context of Arabian horse history. I was never
told "this is the way things are", I was merely told
"this is what Muslims typically believe." Since I
wasn't being "preached to", and since Jamal never
inquired as to my own beliefs, I didn't need to bother
attempting to justify my own position. It was all
handled as an intellectual exercise, not as
proselytizing.
Gradually, Jamal
began to introduce us to other Arab families in the
local Muslim community. There was Wa'el and his
family, Khalid and his family, and a few others.
Consistently, I observed individuals and families who
were living their lives on a much higher ethical plane
than the American society in which we were all
embedded. Maybe there was something to the practice
of Islam that I had missed during my collegiate and
seminary days.
By December,
1992, I was beginning to ask myself some serious
questions about where I was and what I was doing.
These questions were prompted by the following
considerations.
1) Over the
course of the prior 16 months, our social life had
become increasingly centered on the Arab component of
the local Muslim community. By December, probably 75%
of our social life was being spent with Arab Muslims.
2) By virtue
of my seminary training and education, I knew how
badly the Bible had been corrupted (and often knew
exactly when, where, and why), I had no belief in any
triune godhead, and I had no belief in anything more
than a metaphorical "sonship" of Jesus, may the mercy
and blessings of God be upon him. In short, while I
certainly believed in God, I was as strict a
monotheist as my Muslim friends.
3) My
personal values and sense of morality were much more
in keeping with my Muslim friends than with the
"Christian" society around me. After all, I had the
non-confrontational examples of Jamal, Khalid, and
Wa'el as illustrations. In short, my nostalgic
yearning for the type of community in which I had been
raised was finding gratification in the Muslim
community. American society might be morally
bankrupt, but that did not appear to be the case for
that part of the Muslim community with which I had had
contact. Marriages were stable, spouses were
committed to each other, and honesty, integrity,
self-responsibility, and family values were
emphasized. My wife and I had attempted to live our
lives that same way, but for several years I had felt
that we were doing so in the context of a moral
vacuum. The Muslim community appeared to be
different.
The different
threads were being woven together into a single
strand. Arabian horses, my childhood upbringing, my
foray into the Christian ministry and my seminary
education, my nostalgic yearnings for a moral society,
and my contact with the Muslim community were becoming
intricately intertwined. My self-questioning came to
a head when I finally got around to asking myself
exactly what separated me from the beliefs of my
Muslim friends. I suppose that I could have raised
that question with Jamal or with Khalid, but I wasn't
ready to take that step. I had never discussed my own
religious beliefs with them, and I didn't think that I
wanted to introduce that topic of conversation into
our friendship. As such, I began to pull off the
bookshelf all the books on Islam that I had acquired
in my collegiate and seminary days. However far my
own beliefs were from the traditional position of the
church, and however seldom I actually attended church,
I still identified myself as being a Christian, and so
I turned to the works of Western scholars. That month
of December, I read half a dozen or so books on Islam
by Western scholars, including one biography of the
Prophet Muhammad, may the mercy and blessings of God
be upon him. Further, I began to read two different
English translations of the meaning of the Quran. I
never spoke to my Muslim friends about this personal
quest of self-discovery. I never mentioned what types
of books I was reading, nor ever spoke about why I was
reading these books. However, occasionally I would
run a very circumscribed question past one of them.
While I never
spoke to my Muslim friends about those books, my wife
and I had numerous conversations about what I was
reading. By the last week of December of 1992, I was
forced to admit to myself, that I could find no area
of substantial disagreement between my own religious
beliefs and the general tenets of Islam. While I was
ready to acknowledge that Muhammad, may the mercy and
blessings of God be upon him, was a prophet (one who
spoke for or under the inspiration) of God, and while
I had absolutely no difficulty affirming that there
was no god besides God, glorified and exalted is He, I
was still hesitating to make any decision. I could
readily admit to myself that I had far more in common
with Islamic beliefs as I then understood them, than I
did with the traditional Christianity of the organized
church. I knew only too well that I could easily
confirm from my seminary training and education most
of what the Quran had to say about Christianity, the
Bible, and Jesus, may the mercy and blessings of God
be upon him.
Jerald F.
Dirks, Minister of United Methodist Church, USA (part
3 of 4)
Nonetheless, I
hesitated. Further, I rationalized my hesitation by
maintaining to myself that I really didn't know the
nitty-gritty details of Islam, and that my areas of
agreement were confined to general concepts. As such,
I continued to read, and then to re-read.
One's sense of
identity, of who one is, is a powerful affirmation of
one's own position in the cosmos. In my professional
practice, I had occasionally been called upon to treat
certain addictive disorders, ranging from smoking, to
alcoholism, to drug abuse. As a clinician, I knew
that the basic physical addiction had to be overcome
to create the initial abstinence. That was the easy
part of treatment. As Mark Twain once said:
"Quitting smoking is easy; I've done it hundreds of
times." However, I also knew that the key to
maintaining that abstinence over an extended time
period was overcoming the client's psychological
addiction, which was heavily grounded in the client's
basic sense of identity, i.e. the client identified to
himself that he was "a smoker", or that he was "a
drinker", etc. The addictive behavior had become part
and parcel of the client's basic sense of identity, of
the client's basic sense of self. Changing this sense
of identity was crucial to the maintenance of the
psychotherapeutic "cure." This was the difficult part
of treatment. Changing one's basic sense of identity
is a most difficult task. One's psyche tends to cling
to the old and familiar, which seem more
psychologically comfortable and secure than the new
and unfamiliar.
On a
professional basis, I had the above knowledge, and
used it on a daily basis. However, ironically enough,
I was not yet ready to apply it to myself, and to the
issue of my own hesitation surrounding my religious
identity. For 43 years, my religious identity had
been neatly labeled as "Christian", however many
qualifications I might have added to that term over
the years. Giving up that label of personal identity
was no easy task. It was part and parcel of how I
defined my very being. Given the benefit of
hindsight, it is clear that my hesitation served the
purpose of insuring that I could keep my familiar
religious identity of being a Christian, although a
Christian who believed like a Muslim believed.
It was now the
very end of December, and my wife and I were filling
out our application forms for U.S. passports, so that
a proposed Middle Eastern journey could become a
reality. One of the questions had to do with
religious affiliation. I didn't even think about it,
and automatically fell back on the old and familiar,
as I penned in "Christian." It was easy, it was
familiar, and it was comfortable.
However, that
comfort was momentarily disrupted when my wife asked
me how I had answered the question on religious
identity on the application form. I immediately
replied, "Christian", and chuckled audibly. Now, one
of Freud's contributions to the understanding of the
human psyche was his realization that laughter is
often a release of psychological tension. However
wrong Freud may have been in many aspects of his
theory of psychosexual development, his insights into
laughter were quite on target. I had laughed! What
was this psychological tension that I had need to
release through the medium of laughter?
I then hurriedly
went on to offer my wife a brief affirmation that I
was a Christian, not a Muslim. In response to which,
she politely informed me that she was merely asking
whether I had written "Christian", or "Protestant", or
"Methodist." On a professional basis, I knew that a
person does not defend himself against an accusation
that hasn't been made. (If, in the course of a
session of psychotherapy, my client blurted out, "I'm
not angry about that", and I hadn't even broached the
topic of anger, it was clear that my client was
feeling the need to defend himself against a charge
that his own unconscious was making. In short, he
really was angry, but he wasn't ready to admit it or
to deal with it.) If my wife hadn't made the
accusation, i.e. "you are a Muslim", then the
accusation had to have come from my own unconscious,
as I was the only other person present. I was aware
of this, but still I hesitated. The religious label
that had been stuck to my sense of identity for 43
years was not going to come off easily.
About a month
had gone by since my wife's question to me. It was
now late in January of 1993. I had set aside all the
books on Islam by the Western scholars, as I had read
them all thoroughly. The two English translations of
the meaning of the Quran were back on the bookshelf,
and I was busy reading yet a third English translation
of the meaning of the Quran. Maybe in this
translation I would find some sudden justification
for…
I was taking my
lunch hour from my private practice at a local Arab
restaurant that I had started to frequent. I entered
as usual, seated myself at a small table, and opened
my third English translation of the meaning of the
Quran to where I had left off in my reading. I
figured I might as well get some reading done over my
lunch hour. Moments later, I became aware that
Mahmoud was at my shoulder, and waiting to take my
order. He glanced at what I was reading, but said
nothing about it. My order taken, I returned to the
solitude of my reading.
A few minutes
later, Mahmoud's wife, Iman, an American Muslim, who
wore the Hijab (scarf) and modest dress that I had
come to associate with female Muslims, brought me my
order. She commented that I was reading the Quran,
and politely asked if I were a Muslim. The word was
out of my mouth before it could be modified by any
social etiquette or politeness: "No!" That single
word was said forcefully, and with more than a hint of
irritability. With that, Iman politely retired from
my table.
What was
happening to me? I had behaved rudely and somewhat
aggressively. What had this woman done to deserve
such behavior from me? This wasn't like me. Given my
childhood upbringing, I still used "sir" and "ma'am"
when addressing clerks and cashiers who were waiting
on me in stores. I could pretend to ignore my own
laughter as a release of tension, but I couldn't begin
to ignore this sort of unconscionable behavior from
myself. My reading was set aside, and I mentally
stewed over this turn of events throughout my meal.
The more I stewed, the guiltier I felt about my
behavior. I knew that when Iman brought me my check
at the end of the meal, I was going to need to make
some amends. If for no other reason, simple
politeness demanded it. Furthermore, I was really
quite disturbed about how resistant I had been to her
innocuous question. What was going on in me that I
responded with that much force to such a simple and
straightforward question? Why did that one, simple
question lead to such atypical behavior on my part?
Later, when Iman
came with my check, I attempted a round-about apology
by saying: "I'm afraid I was a little abrupt in
answering your question before. If you were asking me
whether I believe that there is only one God, then my
answer is yes. If you were asking me whether I
believe that Muhammad was one of the prophets of that
one God, then my answer is yes." She very nicely and
very supportively said: "That's okay; it takes some
people a little longer than others."
Perhaps, the
readers of this will be kind enough to note the
psychological games I was playing with myself without
chuckling too hard at my mental gymnastics and
behavior. I well knew that in my own way, using my
own words, I had just said the Shahadah, the Islamic
testimonial of faith, i.e. "I testify that there is no
god but God, and I testify that Muhammad is the
messenger of God." However, having said that, and
having recognized what I said, I could still cling to
my old and familiar label of religious identity.
After all, I hadn't said I was a Muslim. I was simply
a Christian, albeit an atypical Christian, who was
willing to say that there was one God, not a triune
godhead, and who was willing to say that Muhammad was
one of the prophets inspired by that one God. If a
Muslim wanted to accept me as being a Muslim that was
his or her business, and his or her label of religious
identity. However, it was not mine. I thought I had
found my way out of my crisis of religious identity.
I was a Christian, who would carefully explain that I
agreed with, and was willing to testify to, the
Islamic testimonial of faith. Having made my tortured
explanation, and having parsed the English language to
within an inch of its life, others could hang whatever
label on me they wished. It was their label, and not
mine.
Jerald F.
Dirks, Minister of United Methodist Church, USA (part
3 of 4)
It was now March
of 1993, and my wife and I were enjoying a five-week
vacation in the Middle East. It was also the Islamic
month of Ramadan, when Muslims fast from day break
until sunset. Because we were so often staying with
or being escorted around by family members of our
Muslim friends back in the States, my wife and I had
decided that we also would fast, if for no other
reason than common courtesy. During this time, I had
also started to perform the five daily prayers of
Islam with my newfound, Middle Eastern, Muslim
friends. After all, there was nothing in those
prayers with which I could disagree.
I was a
Christian, or so I said. After all, I had been born
into a Christian family, had been given a Christian
upbringing, had attended church and Sunday school
every Sunday as a child, had graduated from a
prestigious seminary, and was an ordained minister in
a large Protestant denomination. However, I was also
a Christian who didn't believe in a triune godhead or
in the divinity of Jesus, may the mercy and blessings
of God be upon him; who knew quite well how the Bible
had been corrupted; who had said the Islamic testimony
of faith in my own carefully parsed words; who had
fasted during Ramadan; who was saying Islamic prayers
five times a day; and who was deeply impressed by the
behavioral examples I had witnessed in the Muslim
community, both in America and in the Middle East.
(Time and space do not permit me the luxury of
documenting in detail all of the examples of personal
morality and ethics I encountered in the Middle
East.) If asked if I were a Muslim, I could and did
do a five-minute monologue detailing the above, and
basically leaving the question unanswered. I was
playing intellectual word games, and succeeding at
them quite nicely.
It was now late
in our Middle Eastern trip. An elderly friend who
spoke no English and I were walking down a winding,
little road, somewhere in one of the economically
disadvantaged areas of greater ‘Amman, Jordan. As we
walked, an elderly man approached us from the opposite
direction, said, "Salam ‘Alaykum", i.e., "may the
mercy and blessings of God be upon him", and offered
to shake hands. We were the only three people there.
I didn't speak Arabic, and neither my friend nor the
stranger spoke English. Looking at me, the stranger
asked, "Muslim?"
At that precise
moment in time, I was fully and completely trapped.
There were no intellectual word games to be played,
because I could only communicate in English, and they
could only communicate in Arabic. There was no
translator present to bail me out of this situation,
and to allow me to hide behind my carefully prepared
English monologue. I couldn't pretend I didn't
understand the question, because it was all too
obvious that I had. My choices were suddenly,
unpredictably, and inexplicably reduced to just two:
I could say "N'am", i.e., "yes"; or I could say "La",
i.e., "no." The choice was mine, and I had no other.
I had to choose, and I had to choose now; it was just
that simple. Praise be to God, I answered, "N'am."
With saying that
one word, all the intellectual word games were now
behind me. With the intellectual word games behind
me, the psychological games regarding my religious
identity were also behind me. I wasn't some strange,
atypical Christian. I was a Muslim. Praise be to
God, my wife of 33 years also became a Muslim about
that same time.
Not too many
months after our return to America from the Middle
East, a neighbor invited us over to his house, saying
that he wanted to talk with us about our conversion to
Islam. He was a retired Methodist minister, with whom
I had had several conversations in the past. Although
we had occasionally talked superficially about such
issues as the artificial construction of the Bible
from various, earlier, independent sources, we had
never had any in-depth conversation about religion. I
knew only that he appeared to have acquired a solid
seminary education, and that he sang in the local
church choir every Sunday.
My initial
reaction was, "Oh, oh, here it comes." Nonetheless,
it is a Muslim's duty to be a good neighbor, and it is
a Muslim's duty to be willing to discuss Islam with
others. As such, I accepted the invitation for the
following evening, and spent most of the waking part
of the next 24 hours contemplating how best to
approach this gentleman in his requested topic of
conversation. The appointed time came, and we drove
over to our neighbor's. After a few moments of small
talk, he finally asked why I had decided to become a
Muslim. I had waited for this question, and had my
answer carefully prepared. "As you know with your
seminary education, there were a lot of non-religious
considerations which led up to and shaped the
decisions of the Council of Nicaea." He immediately
cut me off with a simple statement: "You finally
couldn't stomach the polytheism anymore, could you?"
He knew exactly why I was a Muslim, and he didn't
disagree with my decision! For himself, at his age
and at his place in life, he was electing to be "an
atypical Christian." God willing, he has by now
completed his journey from cross to
crescent.
There are
sacrifices to be made in being a Muslim in America.
For that matter, there are sacrifices to be made in
being a Muslim anywhere. However, those sacrifices
may be more acutely felt in America, especially among
American converts. Some of those sacrifices are very
predictable, and include altered dress and abstinence
from alcohol, pork, and the taking of interest on
one's money. Some of those sacrifices are less
predictable. For example, one Christian family, with
whom we were close friends, informed us that they
could no longer associate with us, as they could not
associate with anyone "who does not take Jesus Christ
as his personal savior." In addition, quite a few of
my professional colleagues altered their manner of
relating to me. Whether it was coincidence or not, my
professional referral base dwindled, and there was
almost a 30% drop in income as a result. Some of
these less predictable sacrifices were hard to accept,
although the sacrifices were a small price to pay for
what was received in return.
For those
contemplating the acceptance of Islam and the
surrendering of oneself to God—glorified and exalted
is He, there may well be sacrifices along the way.
Many of these sacrifices are easily predicted, while
others may be rather surprising and unexpected. There
is no denying the existence of these sacrifices, and I
don't intend to sugar coat that pill for you.
Nonetheless, don't be overly troubled by these
sacrifices. In the final analysis, these sacrifices
are less important than you presently think. God
willing, you will find these sacrifices a very cheap
coin to pay for the "goods" you are purchasing.
Please note:
The ordination certificate above was too large to scan
in completely - the top line of text is missing, which
says "Let It Be Known To All Men That"