How she found a pure and beautiful
new life style.
By Jina Talang
Revealing to you
my story is not that easy for me to do. Because, it
hurts me so much to recall my past life. But having
Allah in my life, gave me courage to do it. To begin
In the Name of
Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
All Praise is
due to Allah, the Lord of all Words, the Most
Merciful, the Beneficent, and the Master of the Day of
Judgment. Peace and blessings be upon Muhammad, the
masters of all prophets and messengers, and on his
family, companions all and whoever follows his path
till the Day of Resurrection.
Where I am
In a small town
in Philippines, Rizal, Cagayan. I was raised by a
parents of different religion. My father was a "Roman
Catholic", while my mother was a "Protestant". As for
me, I prefer my father's religion. But I'd never been
that religious, because there's a lot of question in
my mind such as:
·Why do I have to confess to a priest
and let him be the one to ask for God's
forgiveness of whatever I'd done wrong?
·Why do I need to pray to saints and
not direct to God?
·Where is God? Does he exists like
·Was Jesus really the son of God?
·Why is there a lot of bible version?
·What is possibly waiting for me after
For such a
longtime, I felt like that I was just wasting my
time. I wanted to know the truth and what is the
right way of life ( a life with God loving presence).
When I was
twelve years old, my father was arrested and accused
of killing his uncle (my grandfather's brother)
because of their ancestral ownership. As far as I
know my father, I know he didn't do it. They simply
don't want my father to inherit anything from their
Because we can't
afford to pay for an attorney, my father was convicted
seven years imprisonment. And because he behaved well
in jail, they released him after five years of
imprisonment. During his years in jail, raising us
became a burden to my mother. Luckily, we had good
people around us (my mater uncle and my aunt) who very
supportive to us.
By the way, we
were five siblings (4 girls and a boy) and I am the
third among them. But due to money shortage I only
finished high school (grade ten). After I graduated,
my uncle (father's brother) brought me to Manila to
find a job. By God's favor, I quickly find a job in a
bookshop. Part of my earnings, I sent it to my
mother. A year and half later, one of my friends
encouraged me to work abroad.
A week after,
she introduce me to the agency. They told me to
submit my credentials. So, I gathered all the
documents they required me of. After a month, they
informed me that I needed to take a medical
examination. By God's love and mercy, I passed the
examination. And in two weeks time I departed to
thank God for having an employer who was kind and
considerate. Three years later, I ask for an increase
salary. But my madam said that she coudn't afford
it. So, I asked them to give me release so that I
cant find work outside. Luckily, they not deprive me
of their favor.
I then found a
work at a billiard hall somewhere in Khaitan. And
there I met an Indonesian believer of Allah (swt).
She had a very strong faith (IMAN). Her way of belief
made me like reading books about Islam.
How am I (in
times of my Ignorance of Islam)?
I never thought
that Islam was a religion worth studying. Most of my
friends were Christians. We use to go together and
pray in the church. In vain and in my heart, I felt
nothing but the absence of God. I realize that I'm
totally "lost" which made me more desperate finding my
way to the right path. So, I bought myself a
"Tagalog" translation of the Qur'an, but I couldn't go
on reading more than two pages of it. So I decided to
keep it aside and buy more books and pamphlets about
Islam. But I came to a point that I gave up
understanding it alone, so; I decided to go to IPC
(Islam Presentation Committee) in Rawda - Kuwait.
They all (the sisters) welcomed me warmly. It was my
first encounter with a group of believing women in
Islam. By my surprise, I feel like a total stranger
to them. It was then I started to attend Islamic
classes. Every minute of the lecture and every pages
of the book seemed like a revelation to me. It gave
me a great spiritual satisfaction which I never felt
before, but still I hadn't decided embracing Islam.
When did I
On June 6, 2004,
I decided to embraced Islam. I did perform my
testimony of faith (Shahadah) in court. It was a real
great experience for me. Every single Muslim at the
court, embraced me with both hands tightly. I knew
then that I was guided to the right path. And I had
made best decision in life. After two years of
embracing Islam, I went back to Philippines, to attend
my sisters wedding.
How was I
(when I became a Muslim)?
Being far from
any other Muslims, living in that place (where I've
grown up) was a big trial for me. I had to control my
desire of wearing my clothes before such as
mini-skirts and half sleeves blouses. As Allah (swt)
forbid us (Muslims) to disclose the beauty of our body
except for our husband (at home particularly) without
the presence of anyone whom can be a "Mahram" to you
In three months
time, in that isolated place (far from any other
Muslims) was that really hard to stand firm on our
religion. So, I hurried back to Kuwait ; to study
more about Islam.
What did I
benefited in Islam?
Islam made me
understand the importance of wearing hijab and
dressing Islamicly. Though at first, I feel
uncomfortable doing it. As days passed by, I got use
to it. I even wear Abaya (jilbab) by now.
my desire of putting make-up every time I go out,
neither with my family nor with my friends.
Islam thought me
how to safeguard myself and how to prevent evil
Islam thought me
the real meaning of sisterhood and brotherhood.
Islam made me
more careful of my actions and thoughts.
woman wearing hijjab and Islamic clothes is a
beautiful as an Angel. What you keep something secret
for the sake of Allah (swt), increases its value. In
other words… Keeping womans body secret, increases its
charm in the eyes of a believing man.